Self assessment

There says:
Know yourself and know your enemy to ensure wins.
Then know yourself b4 u forward to what your destiny or goal.

What i want to be and do? Simple..
I wanna be a person that can do what i wanna do and what i should do..
I wanna be a author, trainer, motivator, team member, etc.
I wanna can bring my parents to go where they wanna go..
I wanna be able to help people around me to find what they want..
etc...
So in order to reach what i want, i have to evaluate what i have and what i can....
Last time, Merry Riana remind me to focus on what i can rather then what i cant..

Language :

1. Mandarin
2. English
3. Indonesia
4. Hokkian(can consider as a language?)
5. Techiu(can consider as a language?)

Strengths :

1. Enthusiasm
2. Passionate
3. Leadership (In developing)
4. Communication skill
5. Analysing
6. Polite
7. Confidence
8. Compassion

Weaknesses :

1. Not consistent
2. No patience
3. Pessimism
4. Emotional
5. Own world thinking

These assessment still in process, pls help me by point out my strength and weakness!!
The more the better.. thanks

Rational VS Emotional

Oh, this is the boss of Thai Express!! oh man, He is GOOD!!

We all hav rational thinkin and emotional in decision making. For some people, they are just more to rational thinking of decision making.. These people seems to be more calm, and dependable. On the other side, emotional decision making people are tend to be rash, they tend to make decision based on their how they feel. I think there is no right or wrong for both type. It all depend on the situation.

There are times when our emotional and rational being crashed out. I'm the situation now.

In rational thinking, i feel all alright. But in emotionally, i just dun balance. So basically i also wat went wrong. I begin lost concentration in class. I know that some training(elken) are goods and that's wat i want, but somehow i jus dun get the real reason that i should go.
So now, i'm in adjusting. I'm trying to find out, how should i really "live" these degree study period. Mayb i just not used to it. From start UOL, i almost always having lunch myself so sometimes i even skip meals... Haish... How to gain weight if like this..! I miss DMS times. Let's imagi we can go back.

There are some points that kept me from doin what i want : Fear, Failure, problems, Discouragent, change.

I believe every1 hav their own fear. And i hav my own fear as well. But wat we really need to fear is the fear itself. Fear, how we face the fear is more important. I have several fear that quite disturb me. I fear to let ppl hate me, i fear ppl will look down on me(depend on who), i fear the lonly feeling, i fear to let how i feel. I fear being rejected. I fear to feeling down, i Fear feeling no use, n I FEAR being put aside... i fear being .....

There is no point carrying your past and keep having your future cover your present. There wont be future if you cant even see your present...

A penny of thought..being neglected,

This is a beautiful wednesday...
A lots happen, and lots of thinking and floating minds...
Since last saturday, i knew some new frens, but some i forgot their name, sorry..
Name : Zhiming(actually already know b4), Contrance, Shi Min(Amelia), Samantha, Linda Susilo, Herliani, Rinaldo, Issaac, a guy name start with "D"(sorry forgot), Brendon, Defie(pemenang dalam table topic dalam Toastmaster), Robert(sepupunya Linda), Melina(pembicara tuk Project 1 dalam Toastmaster), Fawazz, dkk...

Wah, already third week of UOL study, i still having lunch alone in canteen, actually i began to eat in canteen less cos nobody eat with me..
But luckily today i have lunch with Wendy n her bf , n Yaping with YaCao without arrangement, we just meet there... Heee, not really my lunch actually since i just had a bowl of green bean.
Haih, today is marketing class, so far only this class i dun really hav frens.
As usual, marketing class is interesting becos the lecture will share with us some stories.
But today i didnt really pay attention!!
OMG, just third week of UOL study le, i already begin to lost concentration.!! Help!
T.T and still i have lots reading haven read...

Well, after class, i went to meet with Melly to get phone from her cos need to send back to balai.
After that i went to return the book to library and then went to pushcart to check;chat with Contrance and Sandy, another 1 i forgot her name(sorry) and get accessories back. HMm, feel bad.. Didnt help out much...

After all these, i went to opp SIM bus stop to wait bus 61. To think that the bus i always see when i wait for 154 or 74 become so late, even 74 and 184 hav come twice before the 61 come.
Come to think, recently really frustated by the bus!! The bus waiting time would be a lot if i think back. Every morning, the waiting time for bus 154 become longer. I had met a lady complain bout the waiting time for bus 154, but seems nothing change. Haihs///

Ok, taking bus 61 i went to harbour front to meet Jem and others. Suddenly wanna go sentosa...
Today would be better if just go to Bugis..(T.T, really over over budget la)..
But it's ok la since long time dun hav fun. But everytime at the beach, they would just play the hide and seek( hide and seek the sandals).
Something i really dun like is the feeling of being neglected.!!
That's certainly not a gud feeling, and sometimes i really angry for this. I felt i cant join the group. Some1 once tell me i just too secretive or act mysterious. Hmm, somehow i dun feel secure. I dun feel secure to throw out what i really feel. Is this the reason i being left out? But why it dun happen when i with another group ? I dun really know what and how. But slowly i feel that i begin to open up, and trust.//TBC...
But somehow today my mind was in thought so i dun really notice it. Anyway, it was fun cos at last Jez start with hold hostage with my shoes and clothes...(thx jez)
Haha,... now think wat i thought just now, quite amusing... i was imagining some events...
But it didnt turn out wat i want since i didnt tell them wat i want.
So conclusion, today is not wasted... and today happy..

No ones perfect, everyone will have to learn everyday.
And i feel happy because i felt i hav learn something everyday.
And step by step to my better self..
Everything happen for reason//

25 Sept 07

Time flies... without realising it, this is already the third weeks i start UOL...
There's a saying, manage your time or time manage you...

Business Insight : Merry Riana Organisation

This post supposed to be posted on last nite 21 Sept'07, but becos i cant finish, so just post today..

I went to SIM Management House for a workshop. The topic is "Business insight : Merry Riana Organisation".
I think i would not come for this workshop if i had not known Merry Riana's name and her book about half year ago. I was sniffing around for new books to read in popular in SIM HQ. Her book caught my attention because of her name, and the title of the book. From her name, i felt that she should be an indonesian cos i hav a fren name Riana and Merry. Then i was thinking that this lady is using 2 persons name at once. . Which made me very curious becos i seldom see indonesian author in singapore bookstore or can say never see any b4. Secondly, because her book's title " A gift from a friend" is similiar to one of Anthony Robbins's book name "A note from a friend". Then i take it and read just to found out that she made her million at her age of 26 which remind me of Adam Khoo( also the person give forewords for Merry Riana's book), becos as i know Adam Khoo was also reach by that age.

All rite, actually i was very nervous because in my mind keep flash out that the ppl coming to this workshop are actually at least working adults. I tot i'm the only student there, which make me quite inferior when the refreshment session, those ppl are exchanging their name card when they introdute themselves.. But in fact, i might already been seen as a working adult, therefore i cant behave like a normal student anymore. I think i have what it takes.

I introduce to some ppl here. I was exposed to student, working adults, and some bosses. Then also some strange ppl.

Ok, now get to the point, about the workshop itself. Actually i was very suprised becos the place for the workshop is totally different from what i have attend b4. It was like in a bar. There are tables around, so we sit seperately like goin to a cafe then watching some show....
Somehow, this kind of setting dun make me sleepy. So i like it. But I just feel the ppl behind may not see clearly..
NOw about Merry Riana, she is indeed a experience trainer from wat i see. Althought the overall are not as good as expected, mayb becos she didnt prepare fully or she was also astonished by the setting of the member's lounge as they conducted the workshop there.
However, i feel that i didnt waste this trip. As i relearn again. I was again recall and learn from her. And one more thing i wanna declare is i think it is different from reading books. It was a close interaction. So overall i felt satisfy, as i recalled for the things that i needed to know.
VISION --- ACTION --- PASSION
Identify --- Value ---Belief...

Friday, 21 September 2007

The time now is 09.44pm. I'm on my way goin home after attending a workshop in SIM management house. This is the 1st time i went to SIM Management house. I was quite nervous as i just alone on there.
After i reach there, i feel excited as i walked in and i dun felt it as an institute. It was very interesting, the 1st time i reach there, it was still early therefore i dunno where should i head off b4 the time. But my sight spotted the popular @ there. As expected, it was smaller than the popular @ SIM HQ.
After i sniffing the popular, i look for library. It was at level 5. At the moment i just realise i was already at level 3 when i get in the management house. If i didnt spent some time walking around, i might have difficulty to reach the member lounge.
In library, there was another excitement come out from me. Because i was eager to find some books that only in this library have, and which usually i have to request to Tay Eng Soon Library to send there if i wanna read it.
Another excitement, is that the library is just so comfortable despite smaller than Tay library. I would like to spend time here for study in here if got chance. Alamak, forgot to take pics...

19 Sept' 07 - reflection of the day

September 19, 07...

Wednesday...

hmm, i forgot wat i want to write now as i was disturbed in the halfway...
Eh, wat i wanna write ah?? T.T
Cham la.. forgot liao..

13 Sept'07

昨晚有地震，这次摇得比上一次还厉害，弄得很多人都下来楼下了。。
今早又有余震把我给震醒了。。今天本来没有课，但还是得去学校。。刚才在等巴士的时候，巴士来了才知道忘记带易通卡，所以又回家拿。
第二次等巴士的时候我拿了手机看照片，看着看着，突然觉得好心酸，差点就泪湿眼眶了，这就是想念的感觉吧。。。。

The next day...

The next morning, after Vic's birthday party...

Happy birthday, Victor!!

Hehe, actually Victor's birthday is on the second day of our exam. So we didnt celebrate.
But in here, in Jarren's home, we successfully made a suprise for him. Hee..

After finish the steamboat, we went to a megastore. I forgot its name..

Ops, lao da..


Hey Guys, we just finish exam le...!! Hav u forgot we are on holiday?? HEe

Still more...

Aaah, i was bitten.... T.T, see people behind aare looking...

Wow, see how much he ate!!^^

Jing : Hey, hav u had enough?

Rinto : Huh, yao ni guan!

Oi oi, eat la, dun fight anymore... hee

These are for our desserts..

There are still lots pics, but too much i cant post all.

More photos in JB trip

Finish the DMS

Finally, the day in DMS are over. Hmm, time flies. By completing the DMS, i hav study in Singapore for 1 year. During this one year, lots happen and during these times, i hav grown up more. I learn many things. I meet many people. I know many frens.
Everything happens for a reason, everything happen is the best for us.
Hmm, after finish the exam, most of us were very relax.
For me, my frens and i went to JB after the exam. Andre, Jarren, Rinto, Victor and of cos me.^^



Andre is the only person enjoying the journey, taking photos all the way...

See? Enjoy taking pics. Hmm, mayb he should go to photographing course instead of business.

We went for steamboat..

Wuoah, danger ah... Rinto is angry becos his food is being taken away...