Busy busy doin nothing?? 很忙？忙什么？

Huah... finally settle down a bit..
Last week really rush there and here... Everything just seems coming together..
Really live up to francis's saying "live by schedule"/// Having class, prepare for test, attend grandma to doctor, attend father, attend frens' events, clubs meeting, clubs events... T.T

However, another have pass, now i need to keep the task in order.
Task in hand :

1. Study matters (POA Assignment, POA Test, Marketing Assignment, Marketing Test, CF Assignment, and CF Test coming up).
2. YEN-Biz Com and YEN Intership programme
3. Frens' birthday
4. CEO-Match Competition
5. ....?? unknown

Basically today is a bit down. I think i began to lost when i heard from Edmund that we are NOT ALLOWED to work!! Wah, cia lat, ciklaka... susah la.. uuuh, sad! Why cannot!

Today Psocio class have a test, but i cant do it very well.. after that a bit lost.. Then at the meeting just now, i trying very hard to keep my mind from flowing out.... Very hard to concentrate... lost@#$%^&*(

Anyway, new month, a new start... So...

really have to arrange my schedule effective and efficient.....

前几天其实有很多感想的，但是应为没有记录下来， 所以忘记了。。

但是虽然忙得很，却也觉得时间过的非常快但很充实。。。

继续加油。。。

Age and maturity

I have always hold the belief that age does not matter most in nowadays. The important thing is the maturity, thinking and behaviour.
Maturity doesnt come automatically. Maturity doesnt come with age. It begins with the acceptance of responsibility.
...

Looking back at pics

This was my class in high school. I wonder how are they no

Waaah, this pic is the most classic i think. See my hair still split in half!^^
The pics above are when we went to Yogyakarta for study tour. Start from above and left : Herman, Jemmy, Me, Susanto, Amin, Herryson and Rinto(photographer).
Girls : Amelia, Juniana, Sunawati, Wellyanti, and Rona..
Bout this mah, hmm, i not very sure. This might be the pic taken when i first come to here to study.From left : Efendi, Amin(behind), Jemmy, Yanto Jun Beng, Jack, Hartono, Zexsen, Me, Sukarno(Wat u looking at?Coin?) then Herman(green)

Well, These pic together was taken when we actually gonna have seperation. When most of us are preparing goin to study abroad(Singpore at most).

This was taken when we go back, and our pak Nahar's birthday. From left : Ernawati, Rona , Jemmy, Amin, Rinto, Pak Nahar, Susy, Me, and Tina.

Looking back at pics

These are recently taken..

<<<== This pic is the latest one. My hair is growing long again. Haven cut it. Mayb time to cut now. Hee..

I cant find my old pic. I just remember i seldom take pics. I jus begin to take pics especially self pic recently.

Becos sometimes, it is really memorable..

HEe.. i wonder 4 months later, wat am i goin to change again...^^

Looking back of me! One year back!!

Haha... Cant sleep now, so pics. Hmm, looking back past, waah, compare with now, have i change much??
Hee.. Later compare with latest pics

@#$%^&*(

!@#$%^&*&^%$#@!@#$%^&**&^%$#@!@#$%^&*()
&^%$#@!@#$%^&*()&^%$#@#$%^&*
KACAU..
Wanna go CRAzy liao!!

Objective opinion

Hi, by the time i blogging this post, , so lonely that i'm alone with the laptop alone, just finish watching fast n furious, finish 1 match DOTA with AI. Alamak, i even forgot to lock the door, i just got reprimanded by Jem's sis as she just arrive.
Rite now, i feel like doin nothing.. I take my book, wanna read, but cant take in wat i have read.
=_=!!
Ok, in front of me now have a laptop, a book titled "The 360 degree Leader", and a Subject guide of Principle of Sociology... Aiyah, cant even hold up the book...
Haha, mayb becos of last nite crazy nite that we didnt hav enough slept...

Ok, i hav been thinking bout this these days...
Wat field am i fit in? Rite now, i'm taking UOL Bsc Business. Some ppl ask me why i take this course. Well, i usually answer with that i think i more an numberical person, so i wanna gear up my writting skills. So i take up Bsc Business which will be more generalized.
Somehow, that's one of the reason, another reason is that i still cant comfirm wat field should i focus on? Which field is really suit me best? So i take a general course to see again rather than focus on Accounting and finance or banking and finance or economics.
In my UOL study now, i taking POA(Principle of Accounting), PSoc(Principle of Sociology), PMKG(Principle of Marketing), and CF(Corporate Finance). In these subject also, i found i can accept calculating subject more easily. The theory part mayb cos of my incomplete english so sometimes i cant understand wat the british question asking bout.
By observing these factors, i'm more comfirm i will have a easier time in calculation compare ti theory subject.

Then, what field should i really go into? I dunno. Mostly i heard bout ppl comment on me is that , i'm more capable to wat wat wat la... like, "u hav more communication capability" or "u r born to do sales!".. Is it true? i dunno. Mayb those were becos of situation.
Wat talent i really have? So far wat i did is mostly towards wat ppl expect from me. And i just "TRY" to do it. I dunno whether those comments are subjective or objective.
I think most ppl also not very sure bout their true capability. Mayb cos of some event in childhood has hold their potential to show up..
Somehow, i dun really able to express wat i want clearly. Becos in past, everytime i wanna speak up my opinions, nobody really listen to it. And in the end i bcome follow the crowd. Watever they say, i take it as my opinion as well. then i accept it and go along with it. However this kind of attitude or thinking has set me to a lazy mode. I have become lazy to think. To think of others posibility.
Well, i wanna explore more. But will my opinion upon myself will be objective?
Hee... dunno.. should be more towards subjective opinion. Cos that's human behaviour.

A WINNER NEVER QUIT , A QUITTER NEVER WIN!!

Have u find out wat field suit u most?

What field fit u most?
Wat really suit my potential?
I have been a tutor/teacher, sales distributor(direct selling), entrepreneur, insurance agent, etc.
Wat really suit me? i dunno..
Somehow at the moment, i might feel, i'm more comfortable when i was teaching as a tutor.
Cos i like to interact with ppl.
Hee... just wat do i like to do if money and time is not a constraint?
actually i never think bout it. And i really have no idea wat i really wanna do. and i also dun have anything that i dun like to do. hOw..
I haven found out.. hmm..
Then explore it!

Problems

Problems, everywhere i go, i hear ppl complain bout the problem they hav.
At the worst case, people would take their problem as world end problem that they would fell in depression. Some even worse that they think of taking their lives.. All depends.
As we live in the world, we have to expect problems. If we dun hav problems, then we're not living...
I also hav problems. But the problem is how we face the problem.
THink in a big picture, who hav bigger problem, those who dun even know whether they can live over tmr or not. and your problem. Is your problem is live at stake? If not, then it is not a big problem. See, even if we screw up, we still have tmr. Everyday there are just people facing life and death problem. So compare to us, ours would be nothing. Yet, we can always hear ppl talking bout problems.
In fact, every1 hav problem, yet some ppl can just live everyday as if they dun bother bout it. Actually it is not that they dun bother, it is just they face their problem with a different perspective or attitude..
Becos ATTITUDE is the DIFFERENT maker!!
So now let's have a gratitude feeling for wat we have now.
At least we have our live now! And we can make the difference in our life!
Go 4 IT!

Combine the mind Emotionally and Rationally

We, indeed a emotional being. Even though we are allowed to think rationally, but we cant reach our potential if we cant combine the mind emotionally and rationally. What do i mean by this?

When i studied bout consumer behavior, marketers also agree that consumers buy by emotion.

What we do mostly is based on emotion. If u not belive, u can actually think carefully, when u do something, wat is the reason behind your action? Is it becos u "want" or "dun want" something and some feeling? For example, we might accept certain things becos we 'want' to be "labeled" as 'capable'. Mostly becos of "feel" like to, then we decide.

When we do something, it's better if we can emotionally and rationally believ in wat we do.

Example for my case, my elken, i rationally understand and believe that it is good. Somehow, something just dun feel rite in my mind. My mind haven clear the doubt, so even if many factors has actually begin to make me feel i should MOVE now! But i just cant get the passion back.

I know that my mind haven clear. My mind have troubled with many things. I know i have to clear my mind from worry if i wanna start again. I have to clear my worries.

So even if rationally believ and understand is not never enough, we have to put in emotionally to be able to perform at our full potential, and grow.

As for me, i trying to sort them out 1 by 1.
What u worry most rite now??
Studies? Family? Relationship? Frens? Learning? Achievements?

Sort it out! First thing first.

Combine the mind emotionally and rationally to perform at the fullest potential and grow!!

Reflection of the day , 09 Oct 07

Tuesday night, 10.44pm. Condition seems hav fall ill. Currently having a headache..
Everyday new thinking.. Again, lots to write.. but dunno where to start..
Ok, how bout reading? I was asked, why i like reading.
Well, is it true? I dun feel it. I just simply read. That's all. Actually, everytime i read, i just read, and if can of course for learning. The more i read, the more i feel i need read more books. That's y i never stop reading. But i dun really like textbook. And i'm not hate it also. cos sometimes some text just have interesting pics and interesting stories...
I read becos i keep an attitude that i need to learn, as i found myself still very "green" in every aspect of life, still inexperience enough. However, lately i just found out that i had an attitude that i should not have. I found that becos i saw someone just exactly the same as me 2 years back. Just becos i read a few books more than my peers, i tot highly of myself. I become a bit arrogant.
I only think that i can just learn from books. But i was lucky, i had realize that mistake 2 years ago. Every1 we meet is the source we learn becos every1 have different view, different experience toward this world, so we can learn from every1. And of course learn the gud point that we should learn.
Now i meet some1 who does the same as i did, i feel bad bout wat hav i did. Hais.. I hope that guy can realize wat i mean...


Headaches!!! =>..<==

A full day

It always feel gud when u can fully live your life. U shall feel fully utilise your time and your life.
Today, again i felt it again. From the morning until night. Yeah, i feel good. It is human nature to think the bad side/negative side. So if we hav too many free time, we tend to think negative. I said tend mean not all the time la.. Jus most of the time, especially those dunno what they want or what should they do..
Today, full day happening. Meet Jay and Chi xian for lunch. I feel gud as i saw Jay hav the motivation to study or at least go in class and stay in there.. Mayb he felt the lesson.
After that, i spend most time in Library facing the book until headache... and then by the time when i wanna left the library. I suprisingly met Jemmy and Rinto in there... then we had lunch together(quite rare!)

Then i went to class. Well, as usual, get the degree study feeling by holding that thick lect notes..
Began to fear reading lol...

After end of the class, met up with Jesisca for the YEN AGM. Then at there meet again with Melina. And i know come new frens again, but i only remember Ki, Jayclin, Kenneth, Kelvin.. I wonder if i'll remember them when next time see them, cos i think my memory just cant tahan after the sociology class. There are many ppl come for this club. I dunno why, but i have to pay and make their shirt..-_-!!
Well, my impression to this club is acceptable. At least, i got a clear picture bout the club and what should we do.. I join club for some reasons, one of the reason is to light up campus life. And really as they said, we cant rely to know frens just simple from classroom.

After all, on the way go home, i listened to radio. Then i heard a story, the story bout learning ice skiing. At first we can rely a bench or something to hold us on to kept us from falling. then eventually we have to get off from that bench or something if we want to really learn skiing. THe moral of story is that, in life, yes, we need help from other people. But we also need to learn up to be independent. frens can help us in life, but we cant always rely on them. As they also have their life to live on. So it is impossible to rely another person to always take care on u..
So we have to learn up to take care of ourselves... yeah, i think so..
we all are leaders! At least the leader for ourselves. We need to lead to live our life..

Inner chatting??

Listening to other people is a lot easier than listening to yourself right now -- there is a lot of internal chatter going on in your brain, and it might not be making too much sense to you. This is your subconscious working through issues at hand that you might not even be consciously aware of. Things will come to the surface later, when it's time to act. So for now, try to distract yourself by getting in touch with the people you love and keeping things light.

There seems some points here. We have conscious mind and subconcious mind.
So this is quite true. Yeah, i felt it, but i dunno what is it. Mayb something important that i have forgot? Mayb something that i hav put off a while. I think too much. Our mind is never stop thinking. If we consciously control what we thinking, we might go crazy as we will busy to keep control what is in our mind. I'm not able to do that.
So.. If i cant get the answer now, forget it for a moment, mayb some "tink" will just pop out suddenly... First thing first.
So what is my priority now? And what is yours?

好朋友

☆罗志祥--好朋友☆
☆词 曲:kang.hyun min☆

像两首节拍不同的歌
却又同时被爱情合奏
旋律勉强着
愉快不能够假装快乐
你心中有宽阔的天空
空气还稀薄
曾经等待因为会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我
你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心
还会不会寂寞
如果爱情是五线谱
我只希望用全音符
吟唱出爱上你
那完整的幸福
当你的心没有耳朵
即使我为你唱着歌
也只看见我哭了
你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心
还会不会寂寞

曾经因为等待会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我
你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心
ho 还会不会寂寞你说我是你最好的朋友
却不应该再拥抱着
你退缩你冷漠
于是我放开双手
不在乎我的心
会永远的寂寞呜..

☆.☆献给永远走在一起的朋友

最爱还是你

歌手：唐禹哲 专辑：终极一家
☆词:施立曲:michael lin☆

没开口的话怎样才能懂
我好想把画面倒带回头
你留在我心中熟悉的表情
每个温暖纯白的记忆穿越了距离

拥挤的人潮没有人知道
我偷偷想你嘴角就会笑
不要说对不起也不要问原因
就让世界不停的向前
别忘记从前

最爱还是你这是我的决定
像宇宙相对的星互相吸引
慢慢就会靠近
慢慢就会忘记

还是要爱你
时间会证明
我爱你的勇气
牵着你的手才知道是永久

这一次我放弃了所有
只为能再与你相遇
一辈子不放手

☆...