These are pics taken last month to be cover for Vibes.. It took me whole month to post.. -_-"
Saturday, 27 September 2008
Friday, 26 September 2008
Journals, September 26, 2008
12:23am.
Today in the SIM PEARLS Program, Evelyn come in and distributes the notes. One of it is about journals. When I took it and have a short read, I found this idea very interesting where we should write down journals and after some time, get back to this and read again to see if we have change. When I imagine this, I feel quite excited. I do not know but I just feel like doing.
As expected for today PEARLS class, the turnout is not even half of the class. Well, it doesn’t matter to me even though I still prefer more people to have more fun and know more people.
Today’s topic is about Personal Mastery, which I have attended before from Merry Riana before and the thing I remember the most from that class was “VISION-ACTION-PASSION”. The coach for today is Ms Elsie Tan. I was quite worry that this might be boring, but in the end I’m quite satisfied about the class, even though I had not enough fun.
Today we have done some exercise and personal check up. The results of the personal test turn out quite accurate for me (I think). I don’t know how for others. I was quite amazing to found out my greatest gift is “Learning Orientation” and my greatest hindrance for my success is “High empathize”. So after taking these tests have made me realize even clearer how to improve myself. I’m just more concerned about my last rank for “High Empathize. I realize that I dun really have a close relation even with my good friends. I found that my communication levels are different with them. So when I’m with them, I would feel inferior which led me to always keep quiet whenever I’m with them. And when I keep mum, most people would think I’m angry which I did not. And I do not know why my close friends like to relate me as a violence person. I do not remember that I have any violence action (Fighting) since I was primary 6. I’ll think of this further next time.
What I have learned today is “Vision” is so important that it will help in developing our character. In the distance between our “Vision” and our “actual reality” will have a “Creative Tension” which will pull us to our “Vision” but I was left out one thing which is “Negative Tension” which usually the fall back stone that pull us back farther our Vision. Now I know I need to recognize this “Negative Tension” of me and overcome it with the “Subconscious Power”.
Other than this, I also reflected upon the email I receive from Jarren about the characteristics for each blood type. One of the traits that interest me the most is about “The reason people hate”, it says that A type people worry when other people know their thinking, others will look down on them. I was very confused about my “fear” over this as well. But now I know this is just one of my traits as A type people. So I can clearer know why I fear. I hope I can get over this fear and become more open.
Sharing about what I feel right now, I feel I have becoming better than I was in last year. Some people might say that’s of course for sure. You would not be living if you never improve at all. But there are just these people that never improve. But I do feel very sad and disappointed about myself in failing the CF. I really blame myself for not doing well. But who can I say this to… I can only say thing to myself. That’s why most of the time I’ll have inner conversation. Some friends might say I’m strange. Sometimes I wonders if I’ll become double personality if I talk too much to myself.^^ But i told myself now, i WILL GET A BETTER GRADE FOR THIS YEAR. I NEED TO WORK VERY VERY HARD.
Now, in my first try to write journals I can anyhow write to one pages, I wonder why I can’t do this in EXAM.
12:23am.
Today in the SIM PEARLS Program, Evelyn come in and distributes the notes. One of it is about journals. When I took it and have a short read, I found this idea very interesting where we should write down journals and after some time, get back to this and read again to see if we have change. When I imagine this, I feel quite excited. I do not know but I just feel like doing.
As expected for today PEARLS class, the turnout is not even half of the class. Well, it doesn’t matter to me even though I still prefer more people to have more fun and know more people.
Today’s topic is about Personal Mastery, which I have attended before from Merry Riana before and the thing I remember the most from that class was “VISION-ACTION-PASSION”. The coach for today is Ms Elsie Tan. I was quite worry that this might be boring, but in the end I’m quite satisfied about the class, even though I had not enough fun.
Today we have done some exercise and personal check up. The results of the personal test turn out quite accurate for me (I think). I don’t know how for others. I was quite amazing to found out my greatest gift is “Learning Orientation” and my greatest hindrance for my success is “High empathize”. So after taking these tests have made me realize even clearer how to improve myself. I’m just more concerned about my last rank for “High Empathize. I realize that I dun really have a close relation even with my good friends. I found that my communication levels are different with them. So when I’m with them, I would feel inferior which led me to always keep quiet whenever I’m with them. And when I keep mum, most people would think I’m angry which I did not. And I do not know why my close friends like to relate me as a violence person. I do not remember that I have any violence action (Fighting) since I was primary 6. I’ll think of this further next time.
What I have learned today is “Vision” is so important that it will help in developing our character. In the distance between our “Vision” and our “actual reality” will have a “Creative Tension” which will pull us to our “Vision” but I was left out one thing which is “Negative Tension” which usually the fall back stone that pull us back farther our Vision. Now I know I need to recognize this “Negative Tension” of me and overcome it with the “Subconscious Power”.
Other than this, I also reflected upon the email I receive from Jarren about the characteristics for each blood type. One of the traits that interest me the most is about “The reason people hate”, it says that A type people worry when other people know their thinking, others will look down on them. I was very confused about my “fear” over this as well. But now I know this is just one of my traits as A type people. So I can clearer know why I fear. I hope I can get over this fear and become more open.
Sharing about what I feel right now, I feel I have becoming better than I was in last year. Some people might say that’s of course for sure. You would not be living if you never improve at all. But there are just these people that never improve. But I do feel very sad and disappointed about myself in failing the CF. I really blame myself for not doing well. But who can I say this to… I can only say thing to myself. That’s why most of the time I’ll have inner conversation. Some friends might say I’m strange. Sometimes I wonders if I’ll become double personality if I talk too much to myself.^^ But i told myself now, i WILL GET A BETTER GRADE FOR THIS YEAR. I NEED TO WORK VERY VERY HARD.
Now, in my first try to write journals I can anyhow write to one pages, I wonder why I can’t do this in EXAM.
Sign off
David
Sunday, 21 September 2008
It feel good
Now, in the midnight after doing all the things.. Listening to xYz radio hosted by Rudy, a friend in SIM studying UOW(Wollongong) while trying to study is .... impossible to study at this time la... Haha...
I felt quite good last time when Jez told me wat i wrote in this blog. This shows she trying to concern me. Even if she was jus curious, it's enough.
It's very tiring trying to be someone. I felt being alienated trying to be same with my frens. I was wrong. Why make it hard for yourself to be other ppl. Just be myself would be enough. I jus realise it's nothing wrong to be different. Now i know the words "I am who i am" is not so simple..
Well, "It's nothing wrong to be different"!!
U wanna laugh at me? Go ahead//
If it's their attitude problems, it's their problem. Let them be unless they realise it's their problem...
I felt quite good last time when Jez told me wat i wrote in this blog. This shows she trying to concern me. Even if she was jus curious, it's enough.
It's very tiring trying to be someone. I felt being alienated trying to be same with my frens. I was wrong. Why make it hard for yourself to be other ppl. Just be myself would be enough. I jus realise it's nothing wrong to be different. Now i know the words "I am who i am" is not so simple..
Well, "It's nothing wrong to be different"!!
U wanna laugh at me? Go ahead//
If it's their attitude problems, it's their problem. Let them be unless they realise it's their problem...
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