Travelling alone

Location : Either in KL or somewhere in Indonesia.. (cos i was asking way in bahasa indo)

People : Ferdian, Suna, One unknown Indo, one Belgium girl.

I had dreamed this morning, i was traveling alone somewhere, and i was taking a bus. While i was asking the way, i met Ferdian and his group. So in the end, we taking the same bus(more like oplet=public transport in Balai).

In the bus, i asked one of Ferdian's fren, i asked where do you come from? Because she is the only foreigner, westerner. She said she is from Belgium. Then i forgot the rest of the conversation.

Then they reach their destination, unknowingly i followed them, and i forget that i have my own way to go. So in the end i join them. After get down from the oplet, we walk some way until reach a beautiful garden. The garden is full of tall purple flowers, as tall as people height. And i saw some bananas trees and others. It was beautiful, :D

After walk in, Ferdian take out his phone, i dunno wat model was that, and start 3G calling, calling Suna. Haha, in the end we met up with Suna, and chat some time till i wake up...

Addicted to game :D

Yeah, finished installed the Dynasty warriors and i'm addicted to this game. The leveling, character, weapon, war horse and many other new things. Whoooo...

Well, i wont be bored for the time being even if i have nothing to do. But in fact, i have many thing to do..

Decision making, shall i take some time to find out what my passion is? Or shall i jus continue the normal city life, working.

If i work, where should i be? D&A, Summit Planners or look for another more appeal to me?

Put aside about finding my passion. Staying in Sg, everyday is so stressful. The expenses are pilling up. I need to make decision soon.

If i'm to work in here, my choices, 1.Stick with D&A 2. Go with Summit. 3. Elsewhere.

1. D&A, exam fees have been waived(paid by D&A), Darren is nice, PEP Training cost, LPR cost subsidized.

2. Summit, just approached by the company, many thing nt clear. All training provided.

3. Look other?

There are other things need to be considered as well. :(

Waah, pusing2.... Hee..

(Written 23 July, but couldnt post due to error in our internet connection.)

The leisure to reflect on my own

Recently the time has move so fast that i jus realise i dun have the leisure to reflect on my own as i did in the past. There are many things going on in my mind. Sometimes i felt overwhelmed. I wanted to share, but nowhere to share... :(

Finally, something happen today where i supposed to go for training, but in the end i skipped the training. I think i need some time to think carefully whether i should still go ahead with the job.

Maybe i was too rush, rushing to take the offer.

Now i need some time to think carefully.................................................

Crying in the dream

Last nite i had many frens in appeared in my dream. I dream there are many people near a harbour( the harbour was very large). And i mean really many people, there are people i know and people i dun know. As i remember some ppl beside me were Hery (SMP best buddy), Wilykani, and some secondary sch frens.

There is a HUGE Ship, and i saw many ppl on board the ship. The ship was preparing to leave somewhere, i dun knw where is it. All people around me know who they are sending, only i alone dun know why i'm there for. We waved to those ppl who leave on the HUGE ship. We all crying. Hery said he sending his sister, but as i knw he dun have sister..

I also crying, but i dun knw why i'm crying. And suddenly i felt lost, have nothing, have no direction, i'm just following the crowd.

When the ship has sailed, we turn back and hop on a huge 'becak'. As the becak move, i saw lots of people sitting somewhere with a huge umbrella above them. They are watching TV in front. And the 'becak' we are on is riding passing they sight, and the 'becak' keep riding until i wake up.

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My own thinking is, i saw frens, ships, harbour, becak, people.

I interpret this might imply if i continue to move following the crowd, i might lost 'frenship'.

Current plan

Currently, we are going to apply for this LPR. However, this LPR is going to take 2-4 months for them to approve. But some cases might be drag till one year or some might be unsuccessful. Nt sure for wat the reason.

In the meantime, i will have to study and pass the HI exam. And i need to earn income in order to survive this waiting period of LPR. Now the trouble is they required us to submit our transcript, but wat can i show when my result only come out at early sept or end of August. ><"

I changed???

As the time goes by, people do change, whether good or bad, ppl change. It could be growing or it could be declining, physically or mentally. And now i feel i have some changes. I don't know exactly what is it. But it is happening.

Some mayb be caused by the more responsibility i felt after assuming i'm graduating. As i'll be no longer be a student, i'll have to earn a living for myself, for family and for my future own family. For that i need to be more mature.

But i'm having some stress. I refer this as 'Surviving stress'. Sg is a costly city to stay. As i assume i'm going to graduate, i should have begin to stop relying on my dad's financial support. As the days going on, and i'm still unemployed. Every dollars and cents spend become more significant to me.

Stress.. uuuh....

Ah, As i write, i forgot wat i initially wanted to write... ><"

Another thing, for someone, thank you. but i'm sorry. i'm nt really ready yet...

CLICK (3rd)

Wow, just finish watching this "Click". This is the third time watching, and still feel 'gan dong'. :D

Mayb everyone watching the movie will get different interpretation or they may jus watch for fun. I still get inspired by the movie. This make me more cherish the time that being together with my family, my frens, the ppl who are important to me... the moments in my life...

感动天感动地 - 宇桐非

一开始我以为爱本来会很容易

所以没有经过允许就把你放心底

直到后来有一天你和他走在一起

我才发现原来爱情不是真心就可以

我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你

明明知道没有结局却还死心塌地

我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你

总相信爱情会有奇迹都是我骗自己

以为自己不再去想你
保持不被刺痛的距离
就算早已忘了我自己
却还想要知道你的消息

Nice song