i feel so helpless here. I have to rely on myself /\
Darn.,.. i feel so terrible now... for being nice to ppl, ppl take advantages of me...
I offer my helps, but my helps taken for granted.
I have my life to go, i hav to start looking for work.. not taking my time taking care your every small things while you go and do you work..
I have been helping for about 3 months, without really a proper life for myself. I felt so lonely,. as i cant really talk to anyone here about my situation. Why is it so? I feel ppl are not really listening to me. I felt like no friends. I felt like being left behind here. I am stagnant here while my friends are living their life, make their money. I also want to go and work and earn money. BUT i being cant do anything if i stay here. I gotta go. I need to leave this hell... ><
No matter how hard or how helpless situation, i never forgot to reflect. During this period of staying back hometown and basically wasting time, not really wasting, i just spending my time not on myself. I felt a lots of frustation especially when ppl keep asking when i'll be goin again. I have to answer this kind of questions everyday for months... It's getting my nerve... But hopefully after one and another, it will expand my mental capacity although physically i'm quite worn out...
God bless
