13 August 2008

Have been slacking at home for few days. Since back from Balai, i become lazy. Didnt receive the salary yet, and almost used up...
Now dun hav the will to work yet.. But i'll have to..

Later will hav a SIP Chapter meeting, heard we will hav a guest from YALE Uni.
Wonder wat kind of person that is.. But i seems hav been disconnected from SIP since i went back to Indo last 2 months. Cos i cant check my email regularly which like lost contact with the other exco. Felt guilty for no contribution..

Another guilt i hav now is towards FYC, feeling bad.. Almost wanna quit, but the whole organisation is now on pending state. I wonder how will we go..

I worry my UOL exam results. I dun want to fail becos it will increase financial burden to my family since i'm here, i'm the biggest cost for my dad, even higher than total their cost in 1 year. For almost 3 years in Sg, i hav spend almost all his saving accounts in Sg. Although he is still healthy, i want him to retire and enjoy his life now. He is having a regular foot pain. I want him to stop smoking and drink less to take care his health....

Another is to ST, whenever i receive her sms, i would become down. I felt let her down. But it has been decided. I cant change now. So i hav to face this feeling of mine. I know she might suffers as well.

T_T, these are the mental burden i hav right now i can think of.. There are somemore, but these are the major for the moment...